I feel so hurt. I nvr feel so hurt before. I'm tryin my best to retain this relationship, yet i fail. I got no more hope anymore. I'm just a hopeless gal now. To numb myself, i cut myself, i eat medicine. Ytd i wish i can just leave e world. So i wun be so hurtful. I ate nearly 100 tablet. I whole body no strength at all. I tot i was dying. How i wish i can jus die. Seriously no more hope between us. I'm trying hard. End up, Failed! You told me, u will try your best? Isn't this previously u say it to me? Yes, I believe. In e end, wad i get? Even now I dun even trust myself anymore. You are not e one who is hurting me. I'm e one who wan to hurt myself. It's not ur fault. dun blame urself ba. Blame on my stupidness ba. I noe u now tgt wit me coz u scare u leave me, i will commit suicide? If that e case, i rather u leave me. I dunwan you to kelian me. Kelian me den tgt wit me? I dunwan. I lost all e hope i put in. All gone to waste. What i can do is to numb myself. I lost my way. Who can lead me out of the darkness? I'm totally live in darkness. I see no brightness. Who can brighten up my live again? WHOWHOWHO?! I love a guy wholeheartedly, i did my best. I reali did my best. I got no appetite to eat anything. I lost all my emotion. I got no more emotion. There no more laughter in myself anymore. I got no more laughter. Let me live in darkness forever.
My heart now seriously injured, hurt, dead and broken. I nowhere to turn to. What thing can really numb myself? What thing can commit suicide? Just want to end my life, I dunwan to live in this world anymore. I have enough. I scare to face e answer. I just need someone to love me and care for me. Isit very difficult?
