Sunday, September 27, 2009
27.09.09 - Happy 4mths Anniversary. I Love you.
28.09.09 - I'm kinda sad. I got no laughter in my life anymore. My life all filled with darkness. I numb myself by cutting myself. I ate medicine to feel no pain in my heart. I vomitted blood. I dunno wad is happening to me now. He didnt come home ytd night again. He dunno how to face me. T.T I do not know how to face him too. I got no appetite to eat oso. My heart is cryin. Im in pain. I dont want him to leave me. I reali dunwan. I love him alot. I'm so afraid that he will go back to her. I reali scare. I dunwan to lose him. I willing to gif up everything including my life jus nt to lose him. I reali love him. I noe He need time to think, i noe he stress. So at e moment i wun pester him. No matter wad his decision. I'll still respect his decision. I alreali have mentally prepare tt one day he wil leave me for sure. So now i will treasure every moment we have. I whole body got no energy, mayb i ate too much medicine. My brain veri giddy veri pain. I'm in pain now. ;sob 爱一个人很心苦担被爱是辛福的
Friday, September 25, 2009
25 Sept 09 - After work, went to white bar for gathering with company staff. Baby was invited by Roy. We went there for drinks. Baby drink alot. Still dunwan ctrl, stil go for 2nd round with his bro at Qi Li Xiang. Hais. He dunno how to ctrl himself. Drink stil wan drive. I waited for him til 8am +. He told me he slp in e carpark. I gave him 30 miss called, scare smt might happen to him. Came back he told me his car skidded at Expressway den nearly buang. HAIS. Totally disappointed. He keep sayin srysrysry. I wanted to forgive him, but den i wouldn't. His not in e fault. It's my fault. I dun mean to ignore him, but he make me worried lyk hell lo. ;cry. I dun hae any slp at all jus to wait for him to be home. I'm very giddy now. Fever is on me now ><>< I dun mean to ctrl baby. I give him freedom but he takin advantage. T.T How can i believe him wor? Sometime i ask myself, Do he reali love me? Do he reali care for me? I wouldn't ans my que though. I need his care, i need his love. I dunwan other. ;sob. Baby recently keep giving me double eyelid. double eyelid = pek cek/angry. I dunno wad happen leh. But i tolerate, i dunno how long i wanna tolerate. I might burst. Volcano eruption. But i endure. Nvm, coz i treasure this relationship, so i give in. No matter what he done or how he treated me, i will still love him as ever. Tml is our 4mths anniversary. ;yay I love him so much. I'm planning where to go. Hehe. ;laughs. LOVES!!!
Monday, September 21, 2009
19.09.09 - My bdae is over. I'm enjoyin on Sat 19.09.09. My company give me a BIG SURPRISE present sia. Bring me for a BIG MAKEOVER. Thank michelle for e big surprise hor. hahaha! Baby waited for me for 4hr + . OMG. I tot im gonna make him angry. hehe. But den baby nvr angry. Woot. Muacks. Den baby bring me to Shore Restuarant. Wow. E food there nicenice. But too bad, nvr take photo. =p *Droolin* Night time went for pubbing til morning 6am. Enjoying. NICE!!! I love you baby. Muackss. 20.09.o9 - WTH, Went for my car practical. HAHA! Totally shaggg lehhh. zzz. AND again. Went to pub wit baby, ben, houson, alvin and of coz me la. HAHA! 2 days of drinkin. It gonna burn my liver sooner or later =x Went home at abt 5am +. Yawnss.21.09.09 - Went for seafood international buffet at east coast wit baby, ben and houson. Enjoy eating. Here the food: *Droolin*
Nice Rites? HAHA!!! Yummy Yummy. After eating, went to pasir ris. Baby want buy fishfish. After buying, went to ikea, bought some stuff and went back home to set up e fish tank. Finishing, went to chomp chomp to yumyum. too bad, no photo hahaha!!! Finish eating, Home Sweet Home :)
Here some photo of me n my beloved :D
Sweet not? hahaha. Bleahs lalala~
Wednesday, September 16, 2009
CountDown : 2 Days :DYtd after baby get carcar, we went to loyang. But carpark full and nvr bring cashcard so, we head down to eat beancurd haha. followby we went to cineleisure. Wanna watch movie. but den all very late. haha!So we went to sengkang big carpark. I play baby carcar haha! But den i onli wan to play in e carpark. I nvr tot of going outside e road lo. Sob. Den i get scoldin. Somemore, y i drive this way coz he say this "Windy in carpark 1 round den go road drive. somemore no pass BTT" WTH!!! He comparing me n her. Everything WINDY WINDY WINDY!!! Did he think of my feelin not? Here WINDY there WINDY. Everything oso WINDY! tt y i no mood to drive at all. He will nvr noe how i feel. When i dunwan to play e car le. He went to 7-11, he say he wan to create a blog says, my gf drive blablabla. Den i more sad le. I wanted to shoot back "Go create lo, Den link up ur WINDY. Let her see how lousy is ur gf drivin skill!" But of coz, i din shoot back. Coz i dunwan ltr quarrel wit him o. I dun lyk o quarrel. Quarrel no good. So i endure :) I gif in o. Sometime he see me attitude is i bluff bluff de. I wan to make him angry and see him angry. Hehe. Den i mus act act abit. hehe. I hope me n baby no more quarrel le. I wan lovely lovely de. Cause i really care this relationship oh. And i reali love him too <3
Monday, September 14, 2009
COUNTDOWN : 4 DaysMy bdae is comin, Weet~ Ytd baby psp spoil. Battery short circuit lo. Jus bought de, jiu spoil. iyoo. So we went to amk to buy lo. Hopefully dun spoil le. Hehe. Baby so funnie, Says: In future we married, i wan rent 6 lambo. Den run at expressway 200km/h. HAHA!!! Den in my mind, i was thinkin. He reali will marry me ma? But of coz "I WANT" So Kennedy Chan you beta keep your promise to marry me, If not i cut off ur kuku :PTdy mornin, Baby wake up wan go work. Hehe. Den he tot i nvr folded his smart 4. Den i bluff him, ask him folded himself hahaha. Actualli i folded le, i hide inside cupboard. HAHA! I so boring in office. Tdy at paya lebar, bring 2 laptop to work. Play audi and tag heart lo. HAHA. Jialat, recently my memory abit sot le. Keep dream of smt weird weird de. Haywire leh. LOL! Hmmm. Nvm Nvm. Only a dream, doesnt matter de o. ^^ I start to miss baby le. Hehe. Shh Shh. Im so freakin bored leh. ><" Stil got 3hr off work. OMG! Baby tdy need go home take cig. So mayb i go home put laptop den mit him at his home. haha! clever me~ Den go back my hse, go amk take CD. Weet!!! Recently nth to post. Coz no go out. So pardon me oh. MUACKS!!!
Friday, September 11, 2009
Sad Sad!!! Ytd baby fa pi qi on me :'( Coz he promise me wan bring me go buy salad de. But den he forgotten end up nvr buy. Den actualli i was playin in e msg. How i noe baby suddenly lyk so worked out. Den i was stunt, so i oso angry le. I mayb oso overboard lo, coz i scold him T.T I caps my words in msg sayin, "nvm, I DUNWAN TO BUY LE" Den he reply "Cap right . Fine". So i reply "KP LA" Den he reply "Suan ." And i reply "BYE". ><><>< He told me tt, no 1 dare to scold him KP haha. ops~ And he say he was angry, and wanted to go home. But den he fang bu xia me at home. hehe. I hear til this word, i was so guilty for scoldin him leh. T.T
Sry baby, I dun mean to scold u KP de. sob. Will u forgive me? and love me ma? T.T I'll ctrl my temper de. And so u're. Dun alway scold me. When u scold me, i will sad sad de. Sob. Please love me more :P MUACKS!
I'm so happy that i passed my FTT. Yay. TP date on 07.01.10 LOL! Weet. Thk to baby help me hiong to take e trial test arbo i cnt take FTT hehe. Baby, i nvr disappoint u o. Weet. 8 More Days to my Birthday <3>< Den sometime treat me fierce fierce. Sob. T.T
I Nvr treat ur hse as hotel lo. Dun malign me. T.T What i mean is, can tag heart at home. Den if tag heart tired, den go back home slp. This is my meanin. Sob. I'm findin my programme tml xD Tml baby gg to sch for his dunno semo event. Den i nth to do, askin my fren out. haha! But dunno wher to go LOL! Yawns. 1more hr finish work xP
I go do my work le. Tata~ See see see~ Alway lyk to peek at my blog. LOL! Buay tahan you. MR.CHAN!!!
Tuesday, September 8, 2009
Ten more days to my BIG DAYS!!! Hahas. Still planning sia. Baby can you stop peekin my blog. You very bad leh. Alway peek when im beside you. Den make me shyshy. Kick you lo!!! Jialat, tml FTT le. sob. I scare fail sia. Sure fail de. Coz all question very difficult. Den i so stupid de. Hais. Die le lo. My leg have numb since last thursday, dunno wad happen o. Hmm. In office nth to do. So come here blog abit =x LTr gonna study for my FTT le. Hope can pass o. ^^ Tata.
Mr. Chan, Peek at my blog hor. Pls rmb to tag oso la. Stingy leh you!!! Bleah :P
Monday, September 7, 2009
Weet, backbackback~ hahaha!!! Din go out since e 1st of sept. hahaha. Work le go home and audi and slp. Everyday routine is e same!!! HAHAHA!!! My bdae comin =D 19 September Saturday. Still plannin wher to go and how to celebrate. Headaches sia. What things will baby gif me or he wun gif anything? hehe. Nvm. He got gif or nvr gif, no diff. Coz i dunwan any present. Haha!!! So mani yrs inside, i nvr receive any present. So i din hope to receive any. ^^ Thursday actual FTT lai le. Scare Scare~ Hopefully dun fail. >< and Work load start to increase. Haha!!! Pray pray can pass oh. Anyway, Tel u all 1 secret. Trial test is baby help me pass de. He get 50/50 leh. So clever. Nvr study oso can pass de. OMG sia!!! Y his gf me so stupid de. Sobs!!! T.T Countdown 12days to my bdae~ Weet!!!
There nth for me to be afraid of,
There alway a angel protecting me.
And e angel is You~
I Love You Baby Kennedy. <3
Jus lyk PP_Blossom love PP_Wolf.
Eternity Promise tt both we made.
