25 Sept 09 - After work, went to white bar for gathering with company staff. Baby was invited by Roy. We went there for drinks. Baby drink alot. Still dunwan ctrl, stil go for 2nd round with his bro at Qi Li Xiang. Hais. He dunno how to ctrl himself. Drink stil wan drive. I waited for him til 8am +. He told me he slp in e carpark. I gave him 30 miss called, scare smt might happen to him. Came back he told me his car skidded at Expressway den nearly buang. HAIS. Totally disappointed. He keep sayin srysrysry. I wanted to forgive him, but den i wouldn't. His not in e fault. It's my fault. I dun mean to ignore him, but he make me worried lyk hell lo. ;cry. I dun hae any slp at all jus to wait for him to be home. I'm very giddy now. Fever is on me now ><>< I dun mean to ctrl baby. I give him freedom but he takin advantage. T.T How can i believe him wor? Sometime i ask myself, Do he reali love me? Do he reali care for me? I wouldn't ans my que though. I need his care, i need his love. I dunwan other. ;sob. Baby recently keep giving me double eyelid. double eyelid = pek cek/angry. I dunno wad happen leh. But i tolerate, i dunno how long i wanna tolerate. I might burst. Volcano eruption. But i endure. Nvm, coz i treasure this relationship, so i give in. No matter what he done or how he treated me, i will still love him as ever. Tml is our 4mths anniversary. ;yay I love him so much. I'm planning where to go. Hehe. ;laughs. LOVES!!!
