27.09.09 - Happy 4mths Anniversary. I Love you.
28.09.09 - I'm kinda sad. I got no laughter in my life anymore. My life all filled with darkness. I numb myself by cutting myself. I ate medicine to feel no pain in my heart. I vomitted blood. I dunno wad is happening to me now. He didnt come home ytd night again. He dunno how to face me. T.T I do not know how to face him too. I got no appetite to eat oso. My heart is cryin. Im in pain. I dont want him to leave me. I reali dunwan. I love him alot. I'm so afraid that he will go back to her. I reali scare. I dunwan to lose him. I willing to gif up everything including my life jus nt to lose him. I reali love him. I noe He need time to think, i noe he stress. So at e moment i wun pester him. No matter wad his decision. I'll still respect his decision. I alreali have mentally prepare tt one day he wil leave me for sure. So now i will treasure every moment we have. I whole body got no energy, mayb i ate too much medicine. My brain veri giddy veri pain. I'm in pain now. ;sob 爱一个人很心苦担被爱是辛福的
