♥LOVES KENNEDY CHAN♥

Wednesday, November 18, 2009

I nvr mention i'm unhappy at all lo. Why alway thing come so sudden? Why alway so last mins? Last sat you went out. This sat you oso have to went out. This time is thru e night? WT!!! Den i alone at home again. I more and more hate you. I hate you to the core!!! I wun wan to tok to you anymore. I simply hate you. You wun understand how i feel. I HATE YOU!!!

I HATE YOU!!!

Tuesday, November 17, 2009

I'm not a venting anger machine, i do have my feeling. Whenever you bad mood, you will intend to vent at me. Whenever you are sick, you will vent at me. Whatever i do, i say, you will alway vent at me. what i can do is, swallow swallow swallow. Do you noe how hurt when u vent at me? Do you noe whenever u scold me, my heart start to shake. I will wondering isit my previous life i owe you. You got temper doesnt mean i got no temper. Dont ever step on my tail. AND DUN TREAT ME LIKE UR SALVE AND IM NOT YOUR SUBSTITUTE!!! I'm a human. Please spare a thought on me pls.

Sunday, November 15, 2009

Sat 16/11/09 - Went to St.James DF with Jasmine and Eileen. Eileen left at abt 12am and left me and JAsmine. Jasmine and I drink and drink at DF till saw junhui and junhui fren eric. After drinking few cup, We went PH dancing. Damn sickening!!! Those guy keep grindin and grindin! WTF? Jasmine and myself just slam their hand and turn and look at them fiercely. THEY RUN?!? OMG!!! So dance dance dance. Shake Shake Shake. Tiring?! went back to DF. WTF?! Our liquor half portion gone. OH! It's was sitting beside us de guy drink it! Of coz, we din sua so easily. End up they return half bottle back to us. Hehe. Is after ki-ing lo. Lucky no red alert! Arbo kana banned!!! Went back home at abt 4am +, phewwww. reach earlier den sweetheart. MIRACLE!!! Sweetheart not returning home in da mornin. But reach home at abt 4am+++. LOL!!! But baby come back so drunk and he's headache. I myself oso abit seh le, wouldnt take care him much. Hehe. So after that i fall aslp. *ZzZ*

I only can act strong infront of him. I stay cheerful infront him but my heart is crying. I like to stay in the rain so that he wun noe i'm crying. I'll stay and hold on to you until e day you wanna leave me. I do not know are you seriously love me? But i can tel you that, After so many thing happen. I'm still loving u. I'm trying hard to put everything behind me. But it's hard. Whenever i see you, I will recall everything. Can advise me wad am i gg to do?

Friday, November 13, 2009

I FKING HATE LIAR!!! LIE MORE MAY YOUR MOUTH BE ROTTEN, TONGUE GET CUT AND NUA!!! YOU CAN FORGET ABOUT ASKING FORGIVEN AND FORGET!!! I WILL RMB TILL I DIE. I HATE YOU. LASTLY, I WUN TRUST YOU ANYMORE!!! THANKS ME GIVEN YOU MY TRUST. NOW, I WUN TRUST ANYONE ANYMORE!!!

Wednesday, November 4, 2009

WOW!!! So long no blog le. LOL! busy busy busy. No time to audi oso ohh. Past few days, let start with fri 30 Oct 09. Pay in le, so went to usual place at BQ - Qi Li Xiang. Invited, Jasmine, Houson, Gwen, Benlong of coz me and sweetheart. I overheard benlong and sweetheart conversation. Tt lady is looking for him again. Hais. My heart start to shatter again. I having unstable emotional again! She keep contacting sweetheart T.T I dunno my choice is correct or wrong? I noe sweetheart still unable to forget her. what to do? How i wish i can have a brainwash and forget who am i. And wad does she want from him? ROARRR!!! wad i can do is to numb myself from doing work that y i jump to sales. I'm stressing myself from work. I do not wan to think so much. I might afraid i will go wild again! If she still carry on contacting him this way, I dunno wad will i do. Although sweetheart screen her number. But she still have her way of looking up for him. Hais. Am i reali a extra? I do not noe sweetheart is followin his heart or followin his mind. If his heart still have her exisiting. Wad shld i do? Even i ask him, will he tell me the truth? I doubt so. Why does love alway hurt! Love is alway so hurting!!!

Friday, October 23, 2009

Sweetheart finally bring me out again! Happy :) He wait for me after work, i was late 15mins Opps. Coz teaching new staff admin thingy. We went tgt to take car :D At night, mit up Ben long at his camp. Fetch him home to bath den go out. Followby, heading down to bugis to mit jasmine. Den baby 2 more fren joining us. So baby bought me n jasmine to parklane to play pool 1st. While he went back to seng kang to fetch hou sheng and derek.
At parklane, the place was so hot. Den i play till all sweat and pek cek. So stop. Went to play arcade game. Den go out to smoke. Baby reach le. But jasmine hungry wanna eat. So we tel them we go in to order Mac. They park e car ok le. Came in look for us. Den while jasmine is eating. Baby and his fren went to play pool. When jasmine eat finish, we tot that they will be playin pool for long. So we decided to open 1 table. This is how me and baby quarrel ><
When me and jasmine was playin half way, they close e table. I do not wad is happenin oso. Baby jus leave and din inform me wher he be going. Few mins, he came back wit black face. I was wonderin wad is happening. He din tel me. In e end, he say he go out find his fren 1st. We finish playin call him. Den i msg him says, if he is unhappy, i can go home myself. Den he reply and i reply. In e end, both side was unhappy.
So, me and jasmine decided to close e table and went out to find them. He still give e black face. As i do not noe that, they play pool is jus to wait for us finish eating. Coz baby told me he going to play pool. So i reali dunno. While in e car, i cried. I was wondering y alway quarrel de. Inside e car, we heading to BQ to drink.
Reaching BQ, alighting from the car. I wanna take a new pack of cig. I do not know e cig is wit baby. And i do not noe he was tokin to me sayin e cig is wit him. So i close up e door. When he alight. He bang e door. Walk few steps, he started to shout at me in front of his fren. I was so shocked! This is e 1st tym he shouted at me infront of his fren. I was so shame at that point of tym. So i burst out, i cried and scream back to him. Alright, as im up to my anger. i left and walk away with my tear on. I was so sad. Baby chase up me. I kept crying. I wanna dash out of the place to e road. He hold on to me. I calm down and we tok. Den walk back to his car there and i do my make up. My eye lashes drop coz i cry. So shame shame.
Finishing, we went to sake pub to drink. The next table "uncle" treat us total 2 jugs of beer and we order another 1 jugs ourself. So over there, We was drink, drank and drunk. HAHA!!! Went back home at abt 6.30am. And reach home at about 7.30am. I still got to work at 9am. So went home, chng w/o removing makeup and take a short nap. 8.30am wake up wash up, bath, remove make up and off to work. Baby lyk pig, slpslpslp. So i walk to office myself :D He tot i wun get up to work. I'm sorry baby, I disappoint you. In fact! I went to work. HAHAHAHA!!! Cannot imagine, i drink so much, yet i stil can up to work. HEHE!!! POWER RIGHT?!
Tonight going to night safari :p Will upload some picture and some news. Tata~

Tuesday, October 20, 2009

;yay, sweetheart comin back tml night. I miss sweetheart. B4 he went to field camp. He told me that he went for air force dinner. ok. i trust him. End up abt a week. I den found out that he not gg for air force dinner. He went to plaza singapura watch movie and went st james powerhouse. HAIS!!! I build up my courage to trust him. But den he bluff me. At tt tym, i was quite sad de. I onli wan him to explain to me. Den i be fine le. He keep apologise. I forgive him oh. I noe he lie to me mayb got his reason de ba. He promise me hor, he decided to treat me good and wun hurt me again le. I'm happy to hear that oh. That's y i nvr depress le oh. Coz i dunwan him wry le. Hehe. Now i will forgive and forget le oh. HAHA!!! Cnt wait to see sweetheart tml. Havin sleepless night for few days, coz dun hae his smell smell. hahahaa! SWEETHEART, FASTER BACK HOME. I'M MISSING YOU NOW!!!